Those 15 minutes

Found this video some time ago, watt lag gayi dekh ke. Please don't let yourself get into such a situation, ever. You have no idea how bad it can be. It kills. Everyday.

Random Ramblings of a Jumbled Mind

Long time, no see! Yeah, it's really been a long time. Frankly, I didn't feel like preaching to the converted. What's the point?! We all know, those who don't drink, will not drink, come what may; and those who do, won't stop, no matter what. My bro didn't. Why should anyone else? And my bro is dead. Does anybody think, why should they die? You don't. But I do. I think this continuously. My bro died. But why should anybody else die? I miss my brother. I miss him very much. No attempts of mine to replace him have worked yet. I haven't been able to mitigate the guilt of letting him die, yet. This blog is also perhaps another of my useless attempts at forgiving myself. Like always, I failed. So here's it again:

QUIT DRINKING, BECAUSE ONLY YOU CAN

My bro was a stud. He was also a smoker and an alcoholic. But he was.....is still my bro. And I love him.

What if.....?

This 'what if?' has become the biggest question of my life. All thanks to you, bhaiya. What if I had tried harder? What if I had insisted more? What if I had gone on a hunger strike till you gave up alcohol and cigarettes? What if I had insisted that you seek medical help? Would I have been able to save you? 

Well, it's not fair. It's not fair to me, to any of your friends, to your family, to di. It's not fair. Kuch ulta seedha karna hi tha to kuch aisa kiya hota jisse humko taqleef na hoti! Kuch nahi socha na aapne? Kisi ke baare mien nahi? And now? Ab sochte hain kya bhaiya? Ab sochte hain kya, ki aapne shayad meri b'day hamesha ke liye barbaad kar di hai? ki I can never approach this part of the year without crying for you? That this time of the year does not bring happy memories to me anymore? It brings memories of you, it brings back all those regrets, all that pain, all the misery that I have been fighting to forget. And to think that I used to be the girl who took pride in never having any regrets in life. 

I miss you bhaiya. 

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हर जगह आपकी यादें हैं भइया। आपको क्या लगा था, चले जायेंगे तो हम भूल जायेंगे आपको? आप समझते क्यों नही भइया.... आपको भूलना इतना आसान नही है......आप क्यों चले गए भइया ?

Please respond....this is urgent!

I was just wondering, would it help to reduce alcohol-addiction if senior students in my college got together and counseled their juniors about the negative effects of alcohol and nicotine? I understand that they can't totally get rid of it. Perhaps they wouldn't even want to. In my college, at least a little bit of social drinking is considered important training for future life. Besides, alcohol plays a very important role in college politics, so there would be heavy opposition to any suggestion to reduce its consumption. However, I do hope to achieve at least this much:

1. There would be no forcing of liquor on juniors/friends (by maroing sento or otherwise)
2. Before the first daru-party, the negative effects of alcohol would be explained to all juniors. After them it would be up to them to decide whether they still want to drink or not. In either case, the importance of drinking responsibly would be explained to them.
3. The seniors would ensure that any junior who shows signs of addiction gets proper medical help.
   

I don't know how achievable these goals are, so I request whoever reads this to give their feedback. If there are any seniors who can help me with this please do leave your contact details.

Before I end, I think I should also state the reason why I think this might work. See, your juniors look up to you. If the Director or the Dean make such an attempt, they will get laughed at, but your juniors will listen to you. Even if they ignore all warnings, your advice will always remain at the back of their minds. And, well, it might just save their life someday. So, please give this a thought. And do give your feedback.

Alcohol destroys families...don't let it destroy yours

Pam